Monday, May 23, 2011

Broken and Scattered

My heart is in a million pieces on the ground
If I just bend I can pick them up again
Each piece glints with memories
Some with sharp edges and others soft
If I just bend...

But I have bent so many times before!
I am weary and battle-scarred
Apprehensive and bitter now
I glare at the pieces on the ground
I am weary...

The person responsible should not be
I am filled with anger and hurt
There is no clear way to turn in the mire
There is no easy solution to take
I am filled with anger...

These pieces on the ground are lost hopes and dreams
A pox on he who causes me to weep so!
Do I even feel as if I want to pick up the pieces anymore?
Would I be better protected if I left them?
A pox on he!

Which direction do I go now?
It is not just myself who must be protected
My heart has been broken before, but hers?
How can I keep her safe and guard myself?
It is not just myself...

I am so weary from this constant battle!
What do I do with the pieces of my heart?
Everything in me tells me to leave~
But now I have no where to go...
What do I do?


  1. This sounds extremely painfull. Does this poem reflect your own life right now? If so, it sounds like you need to contact your local crisis group. Keep us posted and let us know if we can help in any way.

  2. Yes. This is reflecting events that happened in the last 12-16 hours

  3. I am assuming you have a child or children with you. Do you have a local crisis hotline? There is absolutely no shame in asking for help and receiving it. Call the crisis hotline, the salvation army, any church group, just call and get yourself and your children OUT! My daughter just went through this very same exercise and is now safely in a place of her own with her two kids. It IS doable!!

  4. *Hugs* I know what anguish you're going through. I grew up in an abusive home and my marriage wasn't easy at the beginning.

    I'll keep you in my prayers. It sounds like you've been given great advice on where to turn from here. Wish I was with you so I could do more...

    If you need a friend, please email me!

    Can Alex save Winter from the darkness that hunts her?
    YA Paranormal Romance, Darkspell coming fall of 2011!